Healing Childhood Trauma with Chronic Illness
When looking at my health I’m also starting to look at things in my childhood to help better heal my own traumas & to also help break cycles for future generations. I remember as kid being mentally belittled by both school & dance teachers when it came to my health. Specifically in my need to go to the bathroom. I was diagnosed with IBS at the age of 7 yrs old. I often would be nauseous from my stomach ailments & dealing with chronic constipation. When I needed to go I HAD TO GO. Along with my IBS I look back now & know I’ve always suffered from IC, chronic painful bladder syndrome, but failed to receive the proper diagnosis until I was in my 20s due to the lack of knowledge by the doctors I was seeing who mistakingly took it as a bladder infection… though you would think one would have sent me to a specialist since I was being diagnosed with a bladder infection once to twice a month, being placed on antibiotics that were killing my good gut biome, & my bladder cells were being destroyed the entire time allowing toxins from my urine to enter other parts of my body. With IC I feel an urgency & frequency to pee. Again when I had to go, I HAD TO GO. Then the terrible heavy periods, often leaving me cramped over on the toilet. I remember teachers asking why I possibly needed to go to the bathroom so often, that I needed to stop using excuses to get out of class. Specifically being told once by a teacher “Not even the babies ask to go to the bathroom this much”. The humiliation & pain from that statement as a child was like a slap in the face. We all say things we wish we could take back but as adults we must be more careful what we say to children & to LISTEN TO THEM. But even now as an adult I’ve had fellow adults in teacher trainings or at functions who have said “hold it – wait until we are done”. Crazy how we think it’s “normal” to tell others to hold a necessary bodily function & how dangerous that is. Our bodies tell us when we need to go for a reason. Holding waste in us is damaging. As an adult I now have the authority to say “No, I’m going right now”. Children don’t have that authority. If something seems unusual talk to them, listen, provide help.