Colitis Flare

Today turned out not to be the easiest of days. I woke up with a severe allergy attack where I felt like my head was going to explode & then I also had a flare of my ulcerative colitis. The allergies calmed down along with my head pain after taking some medicine but I’m still working to get my colitis to settle down. I haven’t had a colitis attack in some time. It’s as if my insides are being ripped & slashed apart. My insides are pretty unhappy with me. I’m betting I’ve ran to the toilet over 50 times today. My butt is completely raw. Thank goodness for wet wipes. I’m sharing all this because we look at peoples photos & see these “perfect worlds”. I personally share pictures of me looking & feeling good since my gallery is like a vision board to me. I don’t really want to see a picture of me cramped over on the toilet every time I open up my social media pages. At the same time I do feel it’s important for me to share what is going on in my life, the good & the bad. I’ve been in a place in my life where I would scroll through the pictures & captions of others & become envious of other people’s lives. But the fact is we show what we want on social media, which is typically the highlights of our lives. With my gallery being a vision board, I post how I want to see myself & be. My captions are often where the truth lies. It’s here I share that no I’m not at the beach everyday or out on some adventure all the time. Today was about trying not to have an accident in my pants as I raced to the bathroom. It was about deep breaths while sitting on the toilet as the cramps worsened & I could smell the tinge of blood. It was about getting myself off the bathroom floor, staying hydrated, & continue to eat even though I didn’t want to. I am doing l better now. Tired & achy but my insides are calming down. Tomorrow will be a better day. Just know we are all dealing with something, despite what our pictures will have everyone believe. Take it one breath at a time. #liveauthentically #ulcerativecolitis 📸 @nolan.weisser

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